letting out steam

"Jordan, you cannot make it for everything, you suck at everything."

I haven't had someone say this to me for a very long time. Fortunately, I was criticised for something I dont have much passion in. My reason for being here is simply to pass time and learn something new, and hopefully to love it. But because of you, your character and personality which I begin to despise, Im losing interest in things which I thought I would eventually come to love.

You probably want the best out of us, or you simply want to instil fear in us, or maybe, you want to show your authority... I thank you if your pick was number 1, but il definitely despise you for the other choices. I may be blur, lazy and playful at times, but is there really a need to treat me like a child? Are you really that mature for me? I certainly think not.

Encouraging your juniors can be done in many ways, but fishing them out one by one, putting them down in front of all the others, saying things like "you suck, you cannot make it", isnt going to do. You tell everyone "Im very straight-forward a person and I dont care how you feel." Your insensitivity wouldnt make you a very well-liked person, and you already ain't.

Your plan to instil fear in me interestingly hasn't worked, you may want to check that out. I know a personality like your's pretty well. And I expect you not to care at all, because you are probably full of yourself and we, are the lowly ones.

But I thank you for encouraging me the hard and crude way, even though with a simple polite sentence, I would have already gotten my butt moving. And I thank you for encouraging me, at the bold expense of you becoming well-disliked.

I thank you, once again.

alone in the snow...2:22 PM

Roughing it out again.

Got enlisted into army. Seemed tough at first due to settling down in a totally interesting military environment. Its fun I must say, and I pretty much enjoyed all 9 weeks of my Basic Military Training. Then Lady Luck sat on my lap and said, "Jordan, go for the auditions and try your best to get into the SAF Music and Drama Company." I did, without any expectations at all. And then bang! One month later and here I am learning to be a host and a Hip Hop Dancer. Life in MDC is different. It actually prepares you for all the bullshit you get in the working world. It imbue valuable skills which you can use later in life!

Its extremely unfair to say that life in MDC is easy and makes you a sissy. If you think that way, then fuck you! Dont speak of something you havent experienced yet. You work out everyday, you body becomes badly sore, you work on saturdays frequently, sometimes over 8 hours, you get scolded if you are not improving, you face crowds of jeering and vulgar audiences all the time etc... Its a totally different kind of tough, its more of psychological and emotional training, especially for a person who knows nuts about dancing and hosting:) But yet again, I cant complain because im learning so much!

Time flies so quickly and I am already into my 8th Month in the army. My memories of travelling solo in eastern europe and living the lovely life in Finland is still vivid and clear. Then I think to myself, why must being in the army stop me from travelling? Thats not fair, I have the right need to fight for the things I enjoy doing, and that is my passion for travelling!

And here I now with Operation "Trio", where I plan to travel by train and bus from Bangkok's Hua Lamphong Station, to Aranya Phrathet, and then on to the notorious town of Poiphet (Cambodia), Siem Reap to see the Angkor Temples, Phnom Penh to check out the central market and Tuol Sleng Torture Museum, and finally Ho Chi Minh City for a little taste of Vietnam!

Yes, and people will start saying things like "Dont act smart, Crazy travel alone, waste money go to such lousy places." Well my perspective of travel is different, its definitely not the "all shop and eat" crap most Singaporeans often go for. Travelling solo is better because its difficult to find friends who enjoys roughing it out:(

Finally after a few weeks of getting my leave approved, my tickets are finally booked and its time for me to board the plane again to pursue my passion for travel:)

alone in the snow...9:56 AM